Entry One - They're Dead

They're Dead
I killed him… Not just him, I killed them all. And by accident. What in hell have I got myself into?! Magic is bad news, what will I do? They’re all dead now, their bodies lying in some alleyway to be forgotten with blood pouring out of them. I just, I don’t know what happened. I lost control and suddenly I could feel their heart in my hand… That is something I never want to experience again and while I don’t like this idea, I’ll need to learn how to control this so it never happens again… I’m sure Sean could help with that. As it was he had to carry me all the way back to Big Ben and called his date off due to it. I feel bad… I feel horrible, I feel guilty, I feel responsible and I don’t like it. It’s just, I hated Johns and those lot with all my being but killing them was definitely not the right answer… They had families, people who cared about them. I’d feel so fucking bad if something ever happened to me, Beth would just be left alone. Oh well, I’d rather not start my journal with such a depressing entry, well it’s not like anyone will read this but still. I at least want to document mine and Sean’s progress. Hopefully we can properly start tomorrow.